I fail to see why you hear this
Even then I still fail to see what you mean
So lost in my dark I can't feel your light anymore
You asked if I'm fine once
And I said fine is but another lie
You laughed
But what you failed to understand is
I was telling you I wasn't okay...
I wasn't okay at the start
But the rule was to say I'm fine
Even when the cracks in my soul broke
I still said I was fine
Because those are the words you wanted to hear
Today I'm in despair
So lost in the pains of yesterday that I know not the joy of today
So wrapped in the memories of my sorrow
That joy seems like a star in the sky
I wish I was okay
So that I could finally say I'm fine
I wish I was happy
So that I can finally smile without daggers piercing my soul
Like a deer lost in the streets
I crave to rush home to you
I crave to nurse my wounds in your arms
But even then when you ask
I'll still say I'm fine
Cause that's all you ever wanted to hear
I wish you could see this
See me strive to move far from the grips of the grave
See me fight the hell fire all alone
See me fight the darkness residing within
I just wish..
Can you listen
Listen to the cracks in my heart
Listen to the pains in my soul
Please listen cause even I'm fine is too empty
Listen as I say goodbye
Listen as I cry I can hold on no more
Listen as my soul tears and the grips of death grasp me....
Listen cause it's already too late...
#Allyna Kemmy
