That's the time I managed to say No
No to the Devil who thinks it can control me
No to the devil who thinks it owns me
No to the devil that have being haunting me
Haunting me in my dreams
Haunting me in my imagination
And haunting me in my reality
But today I couldn't
No was out of options
It was so tempting
So promising
Of how it would give me happiness
Of how relieved I would feel
Today it controlled me with it's whole
I tried but I failed
I feel a loser
Loser for I lost the game too early
I feel cursed
Cursed for I think am the only one
I feel damaged
I feel lonely
Lonely for I can never let someone into my imperfect life
I can never open my heart to someone
Despite having feelings for her
I fear
Fear of losing her
Fear of her stoning me
Fear of her judging me in the wrong way
Fear of her not understanding my story
Fear of her pointing fingers behind my back.
But It's not over until it's over
Many will say am a loser
But inside me I know am a fighter
For I resisted for the last five days
For I know I have never resisted for such long
For I know I threw my best punches
For am not Jesus
Who never fell for the temptations
Am only human after all
I know this fight will go on
I accept defeat today
But tomorrow will be a different story
Tomorrow will be sunshine
Tomorrow Pluto will have it's first sunshine
Tomorrow will be a story of my achievements
As I will be declared the champion
And my story will prove
Of a fight well fought
For am not giving up yet
Never shall I
#🌀Man From Pluto🌑🌌
#🌐Blue Poetry 2019📒
#💗❤Rexy~Mose 19'❤💗
